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Ah so we meet again my friend. It's nice to see you and I appreciate your seeing me again despite my callous manner the last time you came by. But no need to fret now. I am over that rage and my heart is left with nothing but love. Love for all that you are, and all that you are not. And isn't that the difference between love and hate? Once you let go of hate, it's gone, fall down, get up. But once you express love, it grows, it swells, it expands, it multiplies. Anyway, as you have probably expected, while you were walking away from my last hub smarting from my venomous words, stung to bitterness, shame and guilt, I am now about to make amends. To renew my vow to you. To reaffirm my allegiance to you. To rekindle what once was. Yes, you can say I'm making it up to you. But don't I always make it up to you?
Firstly, I am thankful of your hubs that teach me everything from knotting shoelaces to understanding microeconomics to comprehending the mysteries of my faith. Truly, your knowledge about the most trivial household things to social conundrums always leave me in awe. And I have come to appreciate them more when I stop to wonder what motivates you to write them and why you write them. Another thing, I have nothing but fondness for your poetry. As I am a fan, I immerse myself in your words and surface with empathy and sometimes,with tears in my eyes. Please write more and I shall drown happily in your metaphors - again and again. And then there are the hubs about your struggles and difficulties. My friend, I will tell you now that I admire you for your honesty and courage. And in my silent ways, I share your load and feel your pain. If only I can fly to you and ease your sufferings, you know I would. If only I could. I also want you to know that your battles with your demons are already half won as you write about them. For surely, your demons will have to fight against two, not one, when I'm done reading.
Have I told you that I drool over the way you write? I may have been remiss in my comments but I'll take this opportunity and confess that reading your hubs is like taking lessons in breathing. At once calm and urgent. At once laidback and frantic. Really, I can only hope that I take my readers in the same ride like yours do to me everytime. Everytime. And speaking of comments, I would like you to know that I am indebted to you for always exulting me wih the most witty lines or words that overwhelm and humble. You encourage me more than you'll ever now. And trust me when I say that I am aware that sometimes you say more when you say nothing at all. I guess I know you so well by now. And if there was a time that you think that I merely passed by your hub with nary a token remark, guess what? I was probably busy nodding to everything that you said and feeling proud of what you have accomplished. Or you missed my email.
And you know what else I like about you and me? It's when we trail each other's hairy ass all over HubPages. I find it to be great fun when I show you things that will surely make your day a little more tolerable. And in turn, when you lead the way, you make me go back to a time when I was a child, clinging to my mother's skirt as we wade through busy places. The hubs that you lead me to seem like the surprises that I strain my neck to see behind store windows, and they bring a smile to this small boy. I am young again and playing in a maze with my friend. Meeting other 12-year olds. And I can't thank you enough for also leading me to people -- other 12-year olds and grownups -- whose art and passion rival that of our own. Powerful, insighful, funny -- a gift i can only learn from and so I take with gratitude. And isn't it amazing that these same people become my friends and playmates, too?
Another thing that fascinates me about you is your penchant for visual and musical artisty. Yes, I'm taking about your ever-changing avatars that must coincide with the tide. (By the way, I see you have come along way in the confidence department given that you have progressed from being your pet to becoming your actual self!) The videos and music you post to make your point across never fail to enhance what you have already expressed in words. They're like alleyways or secret passages to an unknown tavern or a cafe -- a place for respite or more entertainment.
Before I end this, let me say that I am also grateful to you for always taking the time out to shed light on some issues that I sometimes tend to look at from the only perspective I know, my own. I understand now that sometimes you do the things you do because you are as human as I am -- weak in the eyes of frailties and a slave to mood swings. But that's probably the reason why we are sticking it out with and for each other in spite of ourselves and our art. We complement, we supplement, we augment.
Lastly, please do always bear in mind that my lurve for you, my friend, my pal, my buddy, my man, is more than enough to conquer all the things we love hating together - or separately. Love begets love. So you must feel nothing but love for me now. I hope.
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I was prepared to make a snippy comment a la 'It's getting deep in here - glad I wore boots'. But this is absolutely beautiful!!! Never mind I've been one of the "hairy asses" you follow around from time to time, you in turn have led me to some magical places. So, hell yes, I lurve you too!
Awww...so sweet, Cris!! I never knew you cared! This is beautiful!
Actually I feel suffocated, mocked and shocked, at your sudden love for me. Do you think I'm a shiny new hot rod you can ride with the whim of the wind? Or do you take me for a rubberband that springs back when released of tensions. Or perhaps you take me for a wave you can sweetly ebb and flow with in passion and meditation. My love, I loved you once, and then... You loved me back,with the offerings of funeral flowers none the less. You loved me back without commenting.
I didn't comment on the hate one, but I'm going to be so bold as to comment on this. It's one thousand times more biting than its brother hub, and I wish I'd waited to link you until you spewed this one forth. Irony in the first was like someone sitting next to me while I read, but in this one is like a mighty damocles sword hanging above all of HubPages. I fucking love it.
Oh you, crazy guy! From the moment I saw the title the smile was all over my face. You are crazy. hahahah. Now, I love "hate me3x" and "love me3x."
Lurve yah back! :) PASAWAY!
I don't know. Maybe I like being hated better.
Hi Cris, glad to have you back from the hate world. We always loved you, even when you tried to be unlovable. Beautiful hub, a little gooey but beautiful.
I'm with Elena....I felt the Love from the Hate and the Hate from the Love....damn you're good. and yes...I look to a lot of you to lead me to the good stuff....or just a hubjacking...peace.
Oh you've done it now. I'm under your spell and I can't resist you! You're simply amazing in so many ways, and your words pour from your heart in the most beautiful and powerful way as they did in your hate me! hub. I love the contrast, I love the raw, genuine emotion, and it all feels like a sweet gift that you generously give to others without abandon. You are magnificent. :)
You can tie your shoelaces? I am so jealous.
This one is beautiful Cris, but your fickleness frightens me.
OK, let's stick to the important stuff ...Giraffe in Disguise or Peachy Bottom ?
I came back by last night and read this hubs lead in and companion. I'm glad I did, because it makes the contrast so much more vivid in my mind; fresh, so to speak. Can't decide if you are skillful, crafty, or brilliant. I have decided you are all three: Your writing as always is skillful, your craft of weaving words always present, and the juxtaposition of both peices, the set up and now the knock out punch, simply brilliant.
OH! you are such a creep, groveller, and o so loveable.
You've done it again my Man...never ending talent...hummm...I wonder...ummm oh nothing...Yes you have touched everyone in this Hub good Job...Lurve you Moreeee...G-Ma :O) Hugs...HAPPY EASTER
Hmmmm very tongue in cheek, more biting than the other, just taking the piss. I love it lol. You are one sarcastic bastard, aren't you?
Funny how you turned from being a hateful demon just venting your anger at the whole world, to being an angel, cool, calm and loving. Sounds like you gotten yourself in to a cute little puppy love over someone.
Only you write this way at hubpages, Cris. You’re like Luis Miguel , the Latino singer who sings to thousands and thousands but when you listen to him it’s like he is singing only for you. Enigmatic and lovable you as all artists are!
Btw, did you paint that beautiful lily up there in your hub? I don't think that's from Flickr.
Brite - Thanks, I always to try be original. But love is as old as time or so they say.
Jama - You may have left a snippy remark but i know deep in your heart you can't resist me...
AMB - yeah, I try to be sweet once in a while. They keep them coming back.
Frieda - How i think of you I cannot put in a box. So I think of you like the way you I think I do and so much more. Those are calla lilies, my favorite.
Elena. - I'm not taking back what I said in my "other" hub. It's as real as this one. I am no hypocrite! Besos!
sheena - i know you lurve me for everything that I have and lack. Thanks.
Pete - Each to his own persuasion.
Whikat - Yeah, I was in the hate world. Wrote a hub about it, and was out of there even before pushing the Publisn Now button.
R. Blue - Yes, we all have our quirkiness with regards to where we derive love and hate.
Pam - You're lying, You're under my spell since the first day! Oh I don't care what the world thinks about it. LOL Thanks for always (our magic word) coming to see about me and what I have to say.
Tom - Yeah, check this out: http://hubpages.com/hub/There-is-a-Better-Way-to-T
Patricia - sorry if I frighten you - but i'd rather call it variety.
iphi - I say the peachy bottom!
Chris - Thanks. Coming from someone who's writing I admire so much I am humbled. There's no taking what you said back! LOL
Hawkesdream - yes, I amm all that and more!
G-Ma - Thanks for the love hugs and happy easter to you too and the family :D
cindy - a little sarcasm won't hurt.
May - that "other" hub is more than a week old. If I'm seething with rage still, I think I have a problem.
Thanks everyone :D
France
Let's just say I try to be personal and give each hubber/reader the attention they deserve. No I did not paint it - I wish I did. Though I played around with the colors. Thanks for dropping by :D
Has it really been a week already?
Anyways, have a Happy Easter! Be nice to the Easter Bunny. BTW, glad to see you're lovely forehead back. Its been gone for awhile?
Yes more that a week already. LOL
I was scrounging for a new avatar for a while and forgot that I pulled this one down. Anyway, I didn't find anything better than a landing strip so I guess this will do again, for now!
Happy Easter! I'll be nice to the Bunny - promise! :D
I agree with Cris...I love the peachy bottom
-sniff- Chris, you always write as if you are speaking to each and everyone of us here individually. You have said here what we all were thinking at one time or another. If only I had this gift that you and many of the Hubbers I follow with writing talents. You are brilliant, and again, very honored to consider you inspiration here. You just never fail to impress (sigh).
Hey Sandy
I always try to write from the heart, it's the only way that your readers will understand and connect. So there I go again, huh? Seeing you always makes me want to sound poetic. Now why is that? :D
Thanks agains for the words that inspire. :D
Hey Cris,
I guess the bitter pill tastes agreeable when coated with sugar. That's the way it is, I guess.
What about the missing hubs? Which ones did you delete?
Hey Sidd
Whatever, just give me the goddamn pills! LOL
Oh those that I want to reedit. No they're not deleted just resting the back burner :D
Sniffle... Honk...honk...honk...sniffle...I love you man! :)
And as I always say Tom. I love you more :D
12-year-olds unite!
When the night, has come
and the land is dark
and the moon is the only light we'll see
:D
Cris, I love those lillies also and I loved this piece.
PS: Love you too.
Thanks Jewels! My, you look catty today! :D
Me too, Jewels, I love the Lilies in this hub. I almost want to copy it but Cris might put me back in the hate section. LOL
Still can't help smiling when I see this in hubtivity. Cleaver Cris.
I believe Andy Baker stole my last comment as he has been spinning for hours and becoming everyone's fans!!!! lolololo Anyways Cris this one is also a great hub however you forgot women , oh that is right we are your buddies!!! (((Big Hugs))):) Happy Easter!!
Sheena
LOL you can copy paste it of course :D
That's right smile all day and forget about those you've written. :D
AE
Yeah I think I've seen Andy somewhere around here! Yep it's buddies for us! :D
Gosh, you do have a chip on your shoulder, don't you?! :P
LOL Yes, FP I just might have! :D
purrrrrrr!
Mama Mia! Hmmm do you have with you your whip? :D
Cris..*waltzing in*loved this hub and the lilies! Remember I tiptoed in to your hate hub!LOL.
Yeah i remember :D
;D you wrote my name....(sigh).
Why, I'll even say it... S-a-n-d-y :D
CHRIS! You really write from the heart. seriously, the hate me hub got me really into the depths of hate...loved it...the love me hub got me for the first time into the world of love ...Really expressive and pure... You are a great writer.....with one big heart...way to go!
Hey thanks Uriel! Glad you liked both hubs. Hmmm... gotta check that new avatar :D
Love.....ly piece :)
And that's a love...ly comment! Thanks :D
Andy didn't become my fan. Sob...sob....
Who's Andy!
Wow new avatar! Gotta check! :D
I don't know, AE says he's been joining everybody's fan club
Oh that Andy! Yeah he's on a mission! Don't worry I'll delete his comment if and when he comes this way to avenge you for the slight :D
Thanks Cris, you really are a darling!
I know! LOL spread the love BUT not to Andy - until he wisens up and joins our fan clubs :D
lol almost bed time for me. Sleep well Cris! Are you close to China time?
I think exactly the same time. it's 20 past 10pm here. what do you have?
yep, same! Ah, that's why we steal Filipino TV hahaha we have Dream Satellite - for free lol
Good for you! Alright then, off to bed you go. Catch you later, alitator :D
Awww thankyou Cris, it was nothing really, the pleasure was all mine, I am doing my best to please you ... Goodnight my eyes are drooping....I...am ..slowly...nodding off into oblivion...zzzzzzzzzzzz...oops.
Oh Cris - lurve this!
Strange - I'm reminded of Water Babies - you know - Bedonebyasyoudid and Doasyouwouldbedoneby - so different and yet, finally the same :D
BP & Shalini
So I guess you lurve me, huh? Thanks :D
Oh Cris you toy with me. Am I supposed to love you again? O.K.
Randy
Love me or leave me. You decide :D
It has always been my prerogative...
I read it early this morning and I didn't know what to say, I had to wait until I could formulate my deep thoughts, still can't.
Hell yes, love u this much ________________________________________________________________________________________________ too big to measure LMAO.xox
LOL right BP, too big it went through my monitor! thanks for the lurve :D
Brilliant...wait I alwyas say that...shit...uhhhhh well you listed many talents of "someone" so i know it is not me! It is great to have you back.
Pest
I think you missed the bus on this one. And I'm not surprised. If only you're sensitivee enough, you might actually think that this is a tribute to you. Read again :D
Aren't all Hubs tributes to me? Geez you have to be retrained on my shit for sense of humor...no sense what so ever on my part. I hear the "not surprised" comment a lot too. meh.
tsk tsk tsk And I thought the hairy ass was a dead give away. It seems it's not only your sense of humor that is lacking :D
Awww for Pest, that is so nice.Pest you should be so honoured, it's funny even I picked up on that reading this.
Cris, you never stop amazing me! You always write with such amazing emotion! You are an existence conterminous to yourself. Sometimes when I read your hubs it's like stepping into another dimension! You are mystery, and that is good. You are good and that is mystery. (but we do love you :D)
BP - Don't tell Pest, it might go to his head! LOL :D
K@ri - I'm here to amaze! LOL Anyway, thanks for the compliments. And I have no plans of letting you down. And I feel the lurve alright :D
So this is the hub I've heard so much after my months getaway from hubpages and the online world... Honestly, this is the best hub I've read in the last three days of endless hubbing, truly amazing work Cris! Its good to be back : D Only the crazy pirate hub that I read the other day really came close to this artistry, lol.
Now there's a familair face! Welcome back roasted, hope you feel all rested up and ready to hub!
LOL that pirate hub reads like a never ending story! I really like it, too btw :D
This one's worse than the other one, , , ,
Teresa
I know! LOL good to see you back :D
Two juxtasposed hubs both evoking strong emotions. But I draw the line at being loved by another man. Really get a grip on yourself (oh no that's a Pest thing!) Great writing in both!
sixty
Both had to be written and thanks for liking neither one less. And yes, that's so very Pest :D
I also love the love/hate juxtaposition. The entire enterprise was inspired and well executed. Admirable.
Thanks, I'm glad you find this interesting! And yes, I was going for juxtaposing the duality for maximu effect! LOL :D
Could you be kind enough to publish something ever; like ever that is ...
That is not ... never mind.
Ok ... I'll say it ... something that qualifies as not perfect? or really beautiful for that matter?
I Lurve you, hell yes.
nazish
LOL I'm glad you finally let the cat out of the bag eventually! And I'm glad you did, it fattens the heart! Thanks :D
I lurve you back, the eyes of Sauron included! :D
You're nnnnnot a mooooody person are you? LOL =)) verrrry interesting. Personally - I vote for Love, always.
I'd vote for love too. Besides, even if I don't love will still win :D
Wow.. :))))
Wow back! :D
"Love me love me
say that you love me
fool me fool me
go on and fool me
love me love me
pretend that you love me"
can't stop singing this everytime I see your hub on the hubtivity and it puts me in a great mood. Thanks Cris.
Love You!
Hey my princess!
I also like that song by The Cardigans! But can you sing a little louder? Lurve ya back! :D
You have hit on something very near and dear to most people and that is love. We can never have too much of it. Thanks for your thoughts and sentiments on the subject.
perfectweight
ahh love, never too much, never enough! I appreciate your comment, thanks for dropping by :D
Nice. This makes me want to go read a bunch of hubs; I wish there were more time in the day. :^) I feel so honored to have been mentioned! A I'm likin' the new avatar; the partial shots suit you. I think I've seen 3/4 of your face now. :-P
droj
I know what you say, man. If only we don't have to live unvirtually! Thanks about the avatar, I'm saving the full monty for Christmas! LOL
Great of you to drop by :D
Brilliant Hub, Just loved the way you have expressed it, something which newcomers on HP like me can learn.
jayb
That's kind of you to say that. Thanks for dropping by :D
Lovely Cris,
For some reason I keep coming back to this hub. Is it you, the hub or the kangaroo?
nazish
everything and nothing, like lurve!
Btw, my hubber buddy, when will the shadow dissipate from your other side? :D
Cris,
The unveiling takes place when your left side grows back ... or the right ... or ... did I only loose myself or are you as confused too?
I really did not know I had such an effect on you, but thank you anyway......
I really like your style, and wish you would write a book that I could read at my leisure....... You could just put all your hubs in it, and the poem...... will it ever end hope not !!!!!
Brenda
Now that you know, would you stop hating me?
I hope so, too! Thanks for dropping by :D
Well I've been silent long enough now. I knew the other one was a temper tantrum. I am a father you know. I never stopped loving you and no need to forgive you for the angst spat out at me for hurting you somehow. I know you as the the one who wrote this wonderful hub, no other writer could pull this off as well, including myself. I love you son, unconditionally. Now let there be peace. LOL great love begets greater things you know.
C.
I understand, I do. You needn't explain yourself. And that's part of my unconditional lurve for you, old boy. Ours is beyond words :D
great job
I think I will always hate you...
what do you mean you hope so too..... to write a book just do it, it is bound to sell........
C! - Thanks for dropping by :D
Brenda
I think not! But that's just my opinion of course.
That my yearning to write poetry will not ebb and come to an end. :D
You you you. The cahones. It is you and your work that continues to (at least in my case) push that envelope, drive myself harder. Find better words to say. Thank you for doing what you do...and may I add please don't stop.
TRT
There's no stopping now! Thanks for having my back covered man!
All I can say is... wow. Love your writing!
Wow! I love that you do! :D
Ah, the love hate relationship! Intreguing!
LOL nothing is more dynamic than that relationship :D Thanks for dropping by :D
I'm digging around in the "time before I existed" and found this.. ah the thoughts behind the meaning.. captivating.. I lurve ya too!
Candie
Glad you um unearthed this as I get to read it again. Feels like it's been a long time... Lurve ya! :D
unearthing again, it is time this did the rounds again..... still hate you, some things never change
you've been unearthing my old hubs! you're not busy are you? :D
love you Cris...............will miss you terribly.
I remember this hub, i was Brenda Scully, then the last to comment as poet Lorraine.... I still think i am your biggest fan..... I love your work, and i do hope your family put your work in book form for me,,,,,,, Love you, Hate you, they both mean the same ..... I remember these days so well....
Rest In Peace..... My Inspiration,
uhm..is he gone?
BirteEdwards 3 years ago
Oh, so original, Love it, Great comparison at the top on love and hate. Love stays and grows, hate disappears when we let it go. Excellent insight. If you allow, I will adopt it.
Though writing to many you talk to each one of us. Difficult thing to do, but you pull it over very well.